Man.. Oh Man..

So today Jake called and asked me if id like to go with him to his Christmas party that his work is throwing for everyone, this coming Saturday.. his voice was shaking on the phone like he was really nervous. It was cute. I said yes. Can I just say im actually really excited to go! He was telling me about it awhile back and I remember thinking, “Um.. ok.. cool? Hope you have fun?” and he just left it at that, like he wanted me to invite myself (Pshhh that shit doesn’t work on me buddy). This weekend is gonna be weird I can tell.. like where it almost feels like a dream cause this stuff doesn’t happen in real life type..To give you an idea.. I got Tracy a present for Christmas, and to be honest its because I feel bad. This is someone who honestly thinks they’re in love with me. and the only way I can compare our relationship is what Tracy is to me, is what Kevi is to Johnny. It really kills me to actually read this while typing its a little more realistic then id like it to be.. but its true. And without a doubt I love him as a friend but we will never be anything more. And Ive told him this time and time again but yet still on occasion flirt with the guy (i know, i know bad Hannah) But also let me make it clear Ive never done this while in a relationship only while single. So gift it is, I don’t like seeing someone hurting because of me. And when I told him I have a present for him he sounded really shocked and excited. Its gonna make his day, I just know it. Also Sunday should be interesting. But ill just write about that after it happens. : )

@6 months ago
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